Day 49 - each stitch represents progress and change

These are the things I need to remember! With every stitch I make, I witness the knotting of yarn turning into something amazing. They are the baby steps that lead to greatness! This is where my focus needs to be. When I'm knitting, I can tune out all of the petty people, the dishonesty we face daily and the purely cruel behavior of people who are supposed to be professional. I need to channel that in every moment of my days just to get through!

I do realize that there needs to be change and challenge. Right now for example, I am knitting the baby fern for a block of Sean's afghan. It started out great and moves quickly, but holy moly am I BORED! It's tedious! I should be sailing through but I'm making careless mistakes, measuring it every 5 minutes to see how much closer to done I am! This is not how it's supposed to be. I find my mind wandering to that next Aran square I want to start! Or that yarn I need to order to start the sweater Sean wants! I'm only on square 4 of the afghan though so I cannot lose steam already! I guess I'll have to chose more challenging squares for his project and start those others too!

Change and challenge make me happy! Bring it on world!

Day 23 - Flu fingers

First, sorry Johnny! You were out voted and thus we move on to day 23, after all the knitting journey didn't stop, just the recording of it all. Time management is not my friend so I'm working on that one.

My fingers are crying today, as is my back, my face and even my toes. I am amazed by the fact that so many body parts can hurt at the same time. The aching makes the headache, sore throat, raw nose, and aching chest pale in comparison! Ugh. On the dining room table lies Meaghan's unfinished dress and the dance is only two days away. I still have to summon the power to attempt that zipper, but really, I can't physically handle that today.

I did go into administer my music exams today and will again tomorrow. It darn well nearly killed me, but was so worth it as my students in both classes really roses to the challenge. I had to find other ways to teach without using my voice much but that's really hard for a chorus teacher!

My sweater sits here next to me begging me to pick up and knit "just a few rows!" But I know better. The power of that pull will have me pushing through the achy-ness all night and then I will really regret it. Even typing this little bit feels quite like climbing a mountain! I will not fail at this one-a-day posting though no matter what! Hopefully when the medication kicks in (it's on its way) I will be able to knit again.

Day 3 - Each day, a lesson

I think that each day will entrust me with new lessons and only I can decide what exactly I will take away from each. Today, I figured out how to put pictures onto my Ravelry posts. It took a while but I could post them in my projects for all to see and I could share them with groups I belong to. Very cool. Lesson: persistence pays off!

I also decided to pick up and begin the second sock for Mom. Living in this house - my in-laws home - I realized today that you never know when life will take those you love away. It's too short to leave those gifts of love, whether they be socks or something more expensive, waiting around to be given. And so I feverishly knitted away at sock #2 of the pair. As I got about an inch from the heel, I have realized that I will probably not have enough of this yarn, this one skein of Happy Feet, to finish my mother's first pair of hand-knitted socks from me. Lesson #2: sometimes when things don't work out, there's a reason. Maybe I waited too long; perhaps my socks are not good enough for her anyway; maybe my dreams of that perfect expression of love is just a goofy idea. I could finish the toe in a different color and she would never care! After all, it's the tops that people will see.

Like much of what I start in life, I find myself second guessing whether the right thing to do is to turn back.....

I wonder what lesson tomorrow will bring. Tonight I feel defeated.