They say misery loves company...

but I say, everyone loves company when they're doing anything that requires motivation! I have been working on getting into better, healthier habits. As a previously, self-diagnosed "starter," this is a problem! I love to start things and my own personal fitness is no exception. I've been down this road many times but this time feels different. I have taken a brutally honest look at myself and realize that if I don't change what I'm doing now (or rather what I'm not doing) then it will be too late! I need to feel healthier, happier and less stressed. NOW! So I began doing what I did all those years ago when I was taking much better care of myself.

I found a group of women across the country, all of whom have a thing or two in common. I've asked them if they'd like to form a sort of long-distance support system. Sometimes it's easier to work with people you don't really know than to count on family or friends- there's just too much history and emotional baggage there.

I've had 3 respond and am waiting to hear from 2 more. We will kick off our program today as I'll be emailing them a questionnaire so that we can all set and share our personal goals as well as let each other know just what kind of support we need! I can't wait!

Let the journey begin! :)

So...A new journey is beginning...

When Sean and Meag were little, I went back to AMC to get my degree in Music. I had no idea what I was really in for until I got there. Sure music what what I was most passionate about but until you're in the thick of it you have no idea that you will be leaning everything there is to know about ALL music! It was, in fact, the hardest thing I'd ever done.

Although the kids were now in school, I was overwhelmed with guilt and stress and work! When I was home, I had to balance being the mom I was accustomed to being with getting my homework and studying done. The stress was unbelievable.

I started walking taking better care of my health to help regulate that stress and to get myself into a better place, emotionally and physically. This career in music education has been no different in the areas of stress and business. It is so easy to become over committed and as a mom, that again leaves no time to do what I need to do for me.

That stops now.

The new situation with having to now take over the instrumental program in addition to what I'm already doing at the high school will be perhaps, a bigger challenge than getting my Masters at BU while working! I will be of no use to anyone if I am not better equipped to step up to all of the added stress and workload. And thus a new journey begins....

I hope to have the details posted later today or tomorrow so stay tuned.... This blog is about to morph into something besides the daily knitting lessons, although I hope they will forever remain a part of my journey!

Day 14 or Day 21??????

So, this is really hard to figure out, should I be listing this as Day 21 of my knitting journey, or Day 14 since I haven't posted since day 13? Had I not fallen off the wagon, I wouldn't be here. But the truth of the matter is that I am a starter. Plain and simple, I have know this about myself for most of my adult life. I am constantly trying to change this about myself and I refuse to give in! Let me know what you think!

Speaking of feedback, I want to say Thank you and I'm sorry to Katie! My lone reader! Now that I know you're out there, I feel I've let you down! A week's a long time to go and I will not let you down again - Promise!

I have some legit. excuses! I've been battling some work issues...yes, I am one of those who takes it all home. (Yet another area to change) And I've been working feverishly to make my daughter's dream dress for the Winter Ball at her high school! Truth be told, I'm in over my head as I haven't sewn clothes for the kids since they were in about third grade! I used to love to make them first day of school clothes and Halloween costumes. I'd even make a dress for Meag and matching pants and vest for Sean for Easter and Christmas! One year, I even made my dear husband a matching Christmas vest in dark green velvet! He loves me so much he even wore it!

So amidst the feverish knitting, which I'll get to in a minute, I've been cutting, pinning and sewing! I have the bodice and skirt put together and next is a zipper and straps and then hemming! The dance is Saturday! AUGH!!!!! The zipper scares me but I'll do my best not to let her down!

So, the knitting.....When I can no longer stand the patterning, I've been working this week on my sweater from Noreen. I'd made a promise to finish before the cold weather goes and I am determined not to let myself or her memory down. I've also been hunting for the last ball of yarn needed to finish the project for my swappee, but I'm now wondering if I'll even need it. I'll have to investigate that a little further over the weekend....after I finish the dress!